1 Good Event And Another Bad Situation

Things with this new friend seemed better, especially after i found out she didn't really like the other friend due to his arrogance.. I feel much better about this now.. (:

But there's something really bothering me right now.. The probable impending doom of my fate awaits me. I hope the probability is so low, it won't turn out at all. Classified info. Can't blog about it ): sigh..

A Sad Decision

I've been noticing you have treated me less warm, and then I had a talk with you about it. Only then, I found out that the way I treat you is on a higher level than you are treating me. Which is why I am feeling so drained these few days.

I give my close friends a lot of commitment. But this time, I feel shortchanged. Only after the talk then, I have decided to level it out with you. In my heart, you are just a friend to me now.

I only call one a close friend when it is deserved, as it takes a lot of my energy and commitment in daily interaction. I don't mind doing that if you're really worth it. I feel even happier, in fact. Sorry, but this zone is reserved, somehow.

From here on, lets continue our friendship -- the normal standard.

And for your info, it hurts for me to do such a thing to you in my heart. It hurts, really a lot.

Colder

I'm disappointed. For a few days, she's rather warm towards me. But since last night and till now, today, she has been rather cold. I'm confused, and I feel i'm becoming more indifferent to the feelings of this friendship already. I don't want to lose this friend, though.. Never wanted to lose any..

New Friend

Sigh... These few days i keep having mood swings.. Probably not enough sleep..

I have discovered a new friend, who lives just 1 block away from me, whom i have been playing an mmorpg game with all the long! Didn't know she lives just so near.. I'm excited by that fact alone, but at the same time, i'm feeling disappointed because she can't meet up with me due to her personal boundaries.. That she won't meet up with game friends.. Even if that friend is less than 100m away everyday.. So sad.. I'm in no position to change her boundaries. I have to respect that. So near yet so far.. Nevermind ba.. I guess the best way to deal with this is to totally ignore the fact she's living near me. Even pen-pals from overseas can become close friends. Sms/call/game-pals would have more hope then, logically speaking.. Time will tell..